I wake this morning with the words of those who supposedly love me rolling around in my mind.
No body likes you.
You have nothing nice to say.
No one will ever want to live with you.
You have no friends.
The same bitch keeps coming home.
I’m curious if any of these people know what they have planted in my mind, if they even care that these are the words and actions that are attempting to create a personal belief system.
I must distance myself from these types of communications. Honestly, when we speak to each other do we consider the seeds we plant in the mind? These words spin in thoughts even after they are said, they live there in the mind far after.
Often when we hear things such as this the reaction is one of defense. We may even follow it up with something equally, or even more so, brutal. We may find that we get involved in the word play that tears at a persons heart and self esteem.
These types of words, these communications which roll around in the mind long after they are said, are the type of things that grow self loathing and self doubt. These words are much of the cause of self harm. I hope that those who speak them are not aware of what they do, for if they are and they do it purposefully, then they are consciously working to promote suicide and pain in others, and that dear people, is simply not a good thing.
This pattern must be broken.
Humans have lived with this sickness for a very long time.
Until we recognize it, we will not be able to repair it.
Reversing the damage is an “all people” involved necessity.
If there is nothing nice to say, then at least we can stop saying anything.
The cycle needs to stop.
I do hope that it can be done.